Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can’t prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you’re presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power.
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| — | Blaine Lee (via sevensandstars) |
Here’s the problem with the perfect relationship: It doesn’t exist. Whenever you bring two sinners together, there will be brokenness. It’s not a matter of if, but when. Even the best relationships and the strongest marriages are marred by sin. But here’s the good news: the Gospel is not the story of our perfection, but of God’s redemption. When we screw up, when we sin against one another and against God, He is faithful still. That’s why so many marriages endure in spite of sin—of course sin is toxic in any relationship, but God is greater.
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| — | Relevent |
You are a maniacal maze, and don’t forget that all of the greats like being a little lost sometimes.
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| — | Alex Deleon |
Four in the morning and I’m sober walking through the rain
It doesn’t matter where I’m going every where’s the same
Cold dark room
I’ve put myself into
You were a window to a world that I could never know
And asked for every piece of me and so I let you go
Way too soon
Now I’m back to my cold dark room
If I could take it all back
I could make it all right
You could be the best part of my life
I can tell you all night that I wanna be
The man I’m supposed to be
That…
I won’t lie
I’ve waited a million hours just to say that
I will die if you leave me
You are the way my heart beats
And you are the words my tongue speaks
And I will die if you leave me
I know you’ve heard a thousand words that took your breath away
A million melodies that never got the notes to say
What they mean
I promised you everything
If I could take it all back
I could make it all right
You could be the best part of my life
I can tell you all night that I wanna be
The man I’m supposed to be
That…
I won’t lie
I’ve waited a million hours just to say that
I will die if you leave me
You are the way my heart beats
And you are the words my tongue speaks
And I will die if you leave me
This is me when my world stops turning
Heart stops while I notice everything is falling apart
This is me when my lungs start burning
To say what I mean when I know that I could but I won’t
Tell me things that’ll break the silence
I swear I can hear every heart beat in this place
I wanna see the hope, I wanna feel the love, I wanna hear what you say When I say
I won’t lie
I’ve waited a million hours just to say that
I will die if you leave me
You are the way my heart beats
And you are the words my tongue speaks
And I will die if you leave me
(Well please don’t ever leave)
I am Resting, Resting
My life is a constant to-do list. I pride myself on my ability to plan and organize each day and, for as long as I can remember, I have been deemed as the “Morganizer” for parties and events. In fact, upon graduating from UNC, I plan to pursue a career in corporate event planning. However, upon transitioning into college, I have begun to see the dangers in my desire to constantly be living on an agenda. I found myself becoming frazzled whenever anything did not go according to plan and my desire to regulate every situation became exhausting. As a result, my walk with the Lord began to suffer. Whenever an event or situation arose, instead of being prayerful, I looked to myself to figure out a solution. As the semester continued, the weight and stress of only depending on myself became too much to bear. I found myself always exhausted and my quiet times dwindled down and became a rarity.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
-Proverbs 3:5-6
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”
-Philippians 4:6
“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.”
-James 1:5
I have heard these verses in bible studies for years, but one day the words sunk in. I am flawed. I cannot do everything. In times of concern, in times of despair, and in times of stress, I need to look to Him. My greatest struggle this past year has been accepting just that. As much as I want to control every situation, I cannot. However, He is with me and he beams at my happiness and success. He wants to see me shine, and in order to do that, I need to plan less and pray more. He will make my paths straight. Although planning is a trait that He has blessed me with, I have been working each day to understand that there is a difference between being a planner and allowing my identity as the “Morganizer” to identify me.
We may want to be in control; we may strive for perfection; we may want to live by an exact schedule. However, life never goes according to plan. The only thing that we are guaranteed is God’s undying love and his desire to provide. When it comes to your life, be less of a planner and be prayerful. He will do the rest.
